Where there is a price there is value. If what we want came easily, we wouldn't appreciate it. Therefore, it's only right that it be earned or paid for. In 1776, American Revolution writer and patriot Thomas Paine wrote:
"What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; 'tis dearness only that gives everything its value. Heaven knows how to put a proper price upon its goods; and it would be strange indeed, if so celestial an article as freedom should not be highly rated."
Of the 56 signers of the Declaration of Independence, 5 were captured and tortured by the British. 9 died in the Revolutionary War. 12 had their homes either locked, broken into, or burned by the British. 2 lost their sons in the war and 1 had 2 sons captured. For the signers of the Declaration, the price of freedom was high.
Christ and His disciples' lives were in much more danger. Christ is the ultimate example dying an unimaginable death to give eternal life for all who believe. My point is: if the juice is worth the squeeze, squeeze on! Keep getting up and keep fighting. Keep believing. Doubt your doubt. I'm in this very situation too. Ephesians 6:10 all day!
Be Strong In The Lord and Fight On,